Still on vaca....

So I'm still on vacation! Have been for about 12 days now and I have been EEEEEAAATING like its my j-o-b! But I actually just popped in to tell you this-

Happiness is:
Wearing the One Size Fits 'All' robe in your hotel room!!'

I can't wait to get home and fill you on all the fun details of our trip!

Well, that's done.

Monday.  Usually such a yucky day.  Back to the grind, as they say.  Well, THIS Monday just happens to be fantabulorriffic!!!  I weigh in this coming Thurs to see if I have lost my final pound to reach my goal of being under 200 before Disney World.  Well, this morning I did a little sneak peek on the scale like I so often do and...that's done. 

199.5lbs

There it is.  Such an odd feeling.  I thought I would be all dramatic and collapse on the floor in tears in a moment of complete and utter overwhelming relief and accomplishment.  But that's not how it happened.  I know....sorry.  Lol  It was more like I (gently as always) stepped onto the scale and closed my eyes tight. When I opened them, the number was there, just like I've been dreaming about for years.  I just held my hand over my mouth and stared....and stared....until it disappeared.  I stared at the blank screen for a minute trying to decide what to do.  I wanted to stand on it again and make the number come back!  But I was scared it would change it's mind so I got dressed and went to drink my coffee.  I have been quite distracted by the thought of it all day though.  But yeah.  That's pretty much it.  Now, I keep on eating healthy until I leave on Thurs.  After that, I'm on a 2 week break.  My goal is to not gain a crap load back but I just can NOT diet on vacation!  I'm just hoping that with my learned  knowledge of portion control, I will eat what I want but not gorge myself.  Fingers crossed!!  Wonder what I'll weigh on Thurs???  197 perhaps?!?!?  OMG!  So excited to get back home and start this new chapter in my weight loss!  Woop!  Woop!! 

I wish I had more time to post a ton of pics on here today but my to do list for Dis is looooong.  But here is the one I made this morning:

The craziest thing is I know there is a 70 lb difference there but I stare at it and wonder if I'm tricking the camera.  Like do I look different because I'm standing at an angle or because my feet are a little bit farther apart in the right one.  It's weird....I need to put on that exact outfit on the left...If I can find those pants I may do just that!  Have a great week, imaginary people! :P

Muah,
a

So close I can taste it...

Good Friday morning!

     

So, I'm all of a sudden feeling very centered.  Actually I'm not.  Actually,  Blogger is being a a big jerk and won't let me line up my post how I want.  But I have to move on!  I got lots to do and say! :)

Agh!  Where to start?  Pshshsh, forget starting where we left off!  I'm starting with the scale that I just STEPPED off and the fact that I'm about to tell you my actual weight for the first time!!  I never thought I would have the nerve to do that.  But I had also really lost faith in myself and didn't believe I would ever be this close to my original goal.  When I set up my Weight Watchers account way back when, it asked me for a goal.  Not a small 10% goal but an ultimate goal, if you will.  Well, I knew I wanted to lose at least 100 lbs but that seemed very unattainable (at that time), so instead I set my 1st ultimate goal at just reaching 200lbs.  Oh, how that must boggle the minds of any skinny people that have never been in the 200's!  Lol  But when you have been over 200 lbs for 10 years, you start to think you will NEVER see a number on the scale starts with a 1 again.  It's very depressing, to be honest.  Anywho, so...well.......how do I say this?  How do I express the monumental change that is taking place in my life, my attitude, within myself?  Well, I'm not a professional writer by any stretch of the imagination so I'll just spit it out.  When I weighed in this morning, the scale said 200.5.  That is pretty much 200.  But not.  I lost 3 lbs this week.  Seeing the 200 was just ....surreal.  I had to tell myself not to cry; to save those tears for next week, because next week?  Next week I'm gong to see a number starting with 1 for the first time in over 11 years.  And I may cry like a baby.  I can't really imagine what it'll feel like but I can't wait.  It's going to be awesome and obviously emotional.  I think the best way to celebrate that magical moment is to go to the most magical place on earth!  :D

So, I'll weigh in on Thurs morning and we'll be heading here Thurs evening (with 1 stop on the way):

Look at them all just waiting for me!  LOL 
Ok, I must wrap it up! I have to go find a bra for my ever shrinking ta-tas!! :/  The one part of weight loss that I do NOT love.  I don't really know how or where to shop for a bra that isn't large enough to house a small family but I'll figure it out! ;)  In the mean time, have an amazing weekend.  I know I'm planning on it!

XOXO

a

I Got This...

Happy Weigh In Day!!  Well, happy Friday too but whatevs...
I just weighed in and I'm down 2lbs this week!  Can I get a Woot! Woot!?  Yay-uh!  Ahhh, it feels so good to be back in the (ever shrinking) saddle!! 
I have to admit I was hella nervous about today's weigh in bc this week I've been so freaking hungry!!  But I just kept trying to do my best and make good decisions about what to eat and how much of it to eat...and it worked!  Imagine that!  I did 3 Zumba classes this week and I know that is a big help! I really want to start lifting some weights with Micheal.  My arms need some serious help!  I can see the muscles in there.  Really I can.  But there is still so much fat ...ugh.   I really wish I could've had a better experience with my trainer. :(  Micheal's been doing Insanity for about a month or so now and it is kicking his butt!  I've been meaning to give it a try...I'm thinking tonight is the night then Zumba tomorrow!  I am SO. VERY. CLOSE. to my goal of hitting Onederland (for those of you who don't know this is what us big girls call being in the 100's after being in the 200's for years!!) before we go to Disney!  I still can't believe it's happening.  I'm doing this.  Right. Now.  It's so worth it.  SO WORTH IT.  I am definitely going to be hitting my short term goal of getting in the 100's by Sept, 28th.  I got this...
 Here's a pic of me after Zumba yesterday.  I call it:

The only thing better than seeing your collar bones emerge is seeing them glisten after a kick ass workout!

Have an awesome weekend blogville!

XOXO,

a

A Labor Day Monday Update...

Good Monday morning!!  I hope you are having as awesomely lazy day as I am!  Last night was one of my good friend's birthdays so we had a little impromptu b-day party at my house...well there was just 4 of us and all our kiddos but, HEY, we still partyed, ok?!?  Kim is also trying to eat healthier (read: trying to get skinny!!)  like me so we both tried really hard to make diet friendly snacks and drinks.  I really wish I had taken a picture now; :/  We were SO very good though! We had a veggie tray with fat free dip, a lowfat buffalo chicken dip, shrimp cocktail, and some baked zuccini chips that didn't come out so chippy but were VERY tasty!  Then we topped it all off with a sugar free birthday cake that Kim made!  See?  How awesome are we!?!?  Oh and for beverages, Kim was using diet coke as her mixer and I was using crystal light margarita mix.  I'm proud of us!  Usually my signature move is to use ANY celebration/holiday/special occasion to 'cheat' but we didn't!

So I weighed in on Friday and was down 1 lb.  I'm not impressed, body, not at all.  I was really expecting a little lower number but in all honesty, I can't 100% remember what my weight was on past Friday, only what it was the past Monday so it may have been more than a pound.  Confused yet?  I know!  This weight loss stuff is no joke!  Lol  Either way, down is down and I should celebrate that, yo!! :P Aaannnd on to more good news...


I went to Zumba on Saturday morning!  That is SUCH a hardcore move on my part because it starts at 8:30A.M.!!!  Yes, those exclamation points are very necessary. Because that means on a SATURDAY I have to drag my large butt out of bed at like 7:15 and to me....well, that's just sacrilege.  But I did it and it was awesome!  I burned around 900 calories!!!  Whaaaaa?!?!  True. Story.

And I'm freakin' glad I did because it seems every weekend I gain a lb or 2 and then have to work extra hard to lose that come Monday!  BUT! This weekend?  This weekend I lost a half lb!  WOOT WOOT! 

That's pretty much it.  I'm just trucking along.  Trying to do the best I can...which is better than the best I was. I'm now off to my parents to have some Labor Day dinner.  Pray for me....or at least my big empty belly!


I'll leave you with these gems from last night! ;)

XOXO

a

I'm back! Again..... :)

Hi guys!!!  Sooooo, summer time has been a real biotch to me and my focus on weight loss and thus also to my bloggage. :/ 
I think it's official Me+Summer=Impossible to lose weight!! The good news is I haven't really gained.  I'd gain a couple, lose a couple all summer long.  But now I'm BACK BAYBAY!!!  This week is the beginning of the next hard core weight loss session!  WOOT!  As of today, my grand total of fat gone is 61lbs!  Not bad, eh?  But, alas, tis not good enough! I have to keep moving forward to my goal of losing 100lbs.  Hmmm, have I told you my weight yet? No?  Sigh....Guess my nerve is still not quiiiite up there yet.  Let's just say, I'm going to tell you my weight when it gets under 200 and my goal is to be under 200 by September 29th. Exactly one month from now, to the day.  We are going to Disney World on 9/29 so it's a perfect place to celebrate making it to ONEderland!!!  I'm so close!!!  I'll be weighing in on Friday so I'll fill you guys in on that then!  I have high hopes (as usual).  I'd really like to lose at least 2lbs.  I've been SUPER disciplined so far this week and even did DOUBLE Zumba yesterday, earning me a grand total of 1400 calories burned!!  *High fives all around*

Ok, I must get back to my mommy duties.  I will try extremely hard to get back to blogging now that I'm back in it to win it!  WOOP! WOOP!

  REMEMBER:

Deuces!
a

Dear blog,

I
Miss
You!

Do
You
Miss
Me???

We
Must
Kiss
And
Make
Up
Soon,
Yes?

Yes!

XOXO,
A

The Little Things

Right this minute I am sitting in my pediatricians waiting room.....with my legs comfortably crossed. Sounds simple doesn't it? What about it, you ask? Well it's kind of a huge deal. A few short months ago this would not have been possible. I couldn't cross my legs. It sounds crazy to tell you that now but it's true. And it's sad. But sitting here now still not quite under 200lbs it makes me feel like...a million bucks. Crossing my legs. I feel like a girl again. It literally has brought tears to my eyes. Probably with a little help from PMS! Lol I love these little changes I'm seeing every day. It really makes it all worth it!

Hello again!  I swear I feel like I begin ever post by apologizing for not post sooner!  It has been super busy around here and it's like the longer I go without blogging the more I realize I'm going to want to fill you in on and the bigger the job seems.  Therefore, I put it off.  Today's lesson about moi: I am SUCH the procrastinator!  I literally once bought a book titled 'Procrastination for Dummies' and procrastinated about reading it and never did.  True story!  I digress....let us move on to the juicy stuff:

Person Trainer

So, I have been to the trainer, I believe it's 6 times now.  I'm still kind of on the fence about this particular one.  For starters, I thought it was going to be me and her.  Thats it.  But it's more like a class setting.  There's about 7 of us.  There other thing is I don't really 'get it' there. Like I don't know what I'm supposed to do if I can't make it to class or ..ok, for instance, I know that she does SOME one on one training, BUT I don't know if it's the same price (although I'm pretty sure it is), I don't know how you can get one of those coveted individual spots or why some do and some don't.  I don't know...I just don't feel like I can get in a rhythm there. I'm still hoping something will click and I'll like it more.  I have 12 more sessions so we shall see...

The Scale

I don't think I've done a weigh in with you guys since the big 50.5 post!  Can't believe I forgot to mention it ever since!  I had lost 5.5lbs since the beginning of March but then St. Patricks day and Spring break hit and I kinda got a little sloppy!  So I gained a little last week.  I think I've made up for it this week but we'll see on Friday.  As of March 16th I was down a total of 56.5!  As I sit this moment that number is debatable...we'll see in less then 48 hours though! :)

The Injury??

So, I've had this pain in my left calf ever since I started the C25K back in January.  It doesn't feel like any of my other sore muscles and it kind of comes and goes.  Yesterday after I did Zumba, I walked 3 miles and it was really hurting on the second half of the walk. This morning at the trainer we did legs although not too much calves but still a lot of calf stretching for lunges and such.  I was pretty sore but nothing new. Then I went to run up my driveway and it was like something snapped!  Not audibly snapped,  but it was just this sudden pain in that left calf like a freaking knife.  Of course all this had to happen in front of my mail man so I tried to keep running like nothing happened!  Eeek!  It was bad.  From everything I've been looking up, I think it's a Grade 2 Calf strain.  It says the biggest thing is to rest it and it could require 6 weeks of rest!  6 WEEKS!  I can't not Zumba for 6 weeks!  I'll gain 20 lbs!  I'm freakin out a little about it if you can't tell.  I'm just hoping I'm wrong and that when I wake up it will be all better!

Well, that's about it!  You're pretty much all caught up (again!)!  I'm gonna try to be a better blogger, I promise! :)
In the meantime...I will remember this!  Hopefully I have misdiagnosed myself!!