Happy Dance!!!!!

Morning Peeps!!
Today is weigh in Friday and although I had a less then stellar week:
I lost a pound and a half!
Now, you may  be asking yourselves what the big deal is. In the words of Fire Marshall Bill, "Lemme Tell Ya Something!"  After being at such a standstill for the last 4 months!  It feels amazing to see that number go down!!!  One could almost argue that I lost 3.5 lbs! BUT I really think when I first weighed on Friday I had some kind of water weight issue or something.  But I KNOW for sure, I lost 1 solid good pound-o-lard!  Yippee!  Do you know what this means?  I can officially make a little graph thingamajig for my blog!  Woop!!!


PS.  That sexy chick at the top?  That would be my inner self doing the happy dance!! 

Yummy!

And I'm not talking about food for once!  I've decided to give myself a new motivation!  Shoes...expensive...delicious...shoes!!  When I hit my goal of 100lbs lost, I'm going to be treating myself to something along these lines:

Aren't they scrumptious?!!  I've never owned anything designer...I like to tell myself it's because of the expense but in reality...it's my weight.  Shocking, I know!  I just thinking heavy women don't look right in heels.  It's like all that weight is balancing on those tiny little heels...not good.  There is the rare exception.  My sister is plus sized and looks amazing in heels but we are built VERY differently.  She carries all of her weight in her top half, leaving her legs to look long and thin....not so bad sitting atop a pair of gorgeous heels!  I, on the other hand, am well proportioned....meaning BIG everywhere. Ugh.   So, I very rarely wear them....and surely wouldn't drop a grande on a pair, just for them to sit in my closet!  I can't wait.  Just picture it...a much smaller, much sexier me....wearing these....and maybe even some clothes too! ;)

No news is....

BAD NEWS!  At least that's what it means on this blog!  I've been having a really hard time staying on my diet this go round.  Like, harder than normal.  Lately, it seems like even when I'm eating right, I'm hungry!  In the past with WW I've only failed b/c I gave in to a craving- NOT because my stomach was growling and no matter what healthy item I grabbed I still felt hungry!!!


Oh well, it's morning, and you know what that means.  A fresh slate!!  I'm going to try extra hard today!  I have Zumba tonight too so that is always an awesome way to feel healthy and on track!  Besides that, not much to report.  I'm going to weigh in tomorrow, even though I know it will NOT be pretty!  But I'm going to do it because if I start skipping weigh ins....thats when you know I've lost all hope! :P
I'm off to find me some Thursday thin motivation....

This is how I feel today!

** a chubby, blonde version of this...

Weekends are hard…

It’s so hard to stick to my diet on the weekends!  This past weekend I went to a friends bonfire where she was serving:

~celery, carrot sticks and other various veggie munchies with light ranch.

~Pizza

~s’mores

~white chili

~chips and salsa

~Mini-cupcakes

I am very proud to report I ONLY ate the veggies with a little bit of light ranch!  Go me!!!  I mean, we were there for hours!  And I was the only one who didn’t eat the naughty food! :)  I’m slightly proud. 

In full disclosure, I have to admit, I did have a few adult beverages but I even used diet pepsi as my mixer!!!  I have NEVER done that before! 

Sunday was a little harder.  I went to my parents and besides the healthy fruit and veggies they had (thank GOD!), they had these hot wings that were breaded and fried!!  Ugh.  I was S T A R V I N G.   I kept munching on the veggies and fruit but it was just not helping.  I broke down and had ONE chicken wing and took all the skin off.  So, not that bad, but I would have liked to say I didn’t eat it at all.  Then, for dinner my mom made baked ziti.  I brought my own HUGE spinach salad and ate that before I ate any ziti in an effort to not eat as much ziti.  It worked decently.  I ate less than I normally would thats for sure!  When I got home last night, after a few hours I was           ST A R V I N G again!!  I was like ‘what the hell!?!?!?’  But I couldn’t ignore it anymore.  I ate.  Nights are the hardest part of my eating life.  I am craving sugar and tired and weak!!!  I ate a lot.  Oh well, today’s a new day baby!!  I’m back on track!!  (You know how I love the mornings!!)

Peace out.

~A

Good news/Bad news…

The good news: I just ate the most delicious chicken spinach salad made by moi!!

 

The bad news:  I could totally eat another one.         NOW!

*sigh*

Mediocre Much???

So, yesterday as a whole was so-so.  Not great, but not bad.  It started out stellar!  After I walked a mile I went to Zumba and sweated like nobody’s business!  I Luuurrrv me some Zumba!!  It is the most fun exercise God created!!  Anyway, I never eat dinner before zumba b/c it makes me sick. :/  That is a bit of a problem b/c when I get home, it’s like 9pm so I’m eating a SUPER late dinner and we all know Oprah says that’s a no no.  And also, I’m so hungry by that time that I know I eat more than I should, even if it is something low fat/healthy.  So after I ate my healthy spaghetti with lean meat sauce, I got that feeling.  That holy-mother-of-God-if-I-don’t-have-sugar-NOW-I-will-Die feeling!!!  But that’s okay because I know me.  I know it will happen and I have a few things on hand.  I ate 2 WW 2 pt ice cream choc covered bar thingys.  But my husband was out of town.  And when my husbands out of town my self control goes from 10% to –20%!  SO I went BACK to the Godforsaken kitchen.  The good news is I didn’t go crazy and grab the whole bag of candy corn like I would have last week!  I got it out and counted out 10 pieces, which is 1/2 of a serving! When it was gone I could feel myself wishing for more, so instead of going back to the kitchen, I went upstairs to bed!  So, you see it was a bit of a win! :) 

11:17am AND AAAALL IS WEEELL!!!!

So far, so good!  Today I have:
~~~Eaten: 2 cups of coffee with (gasp!) 5 tsps on sugar and FFree 1/2&1/2 (3pts)
         4 egg white omelet with 1/4 cup of low fat shredded cheese (2 pts)
         an orange (which was annoyingly bland!!) (0 pts)
         a bowl of baby pickles (0 pts)
        So my total points for the day so far is 5!!!  That's pretty good!

~~~~Drank 1 glass of water. What?  You don't think thats a glorious accomplishment!?!?  Well, thats proof we're just getting know each other! :)  I hate water!  I usually drink a lot of diet root ber when I'm dieting!  So I'm going to try to fit water in as often as possible this time around with the notion that it can only help me!!

~~~~Walked a mile with The Prince.  Not fun.  I can NOT stress enough how awful and unfun that walk was!  I'm just really proud I did the whole thing b/c as I was leaving my driveway, I was thinking which way should I go? Hmmm...the short way or the shorter way?  And I said,"Hey lazy ass!  Just do the damn mile!!!"  So I did.
 So those are my accomplishments already for today!  :)  Tonight I will shake off a little flab at Zumba!  WOOP!!



Oh!  I almost forgot I promised a pic!  Here ya go:

Mornings Are My Favorite...

I freakin' love the mornings when I'm dieting!!  You wake up, put your 2 feet on the ground and just like that you are having a perfect day of dieting.  I love when I come downstairs and think how perfect the day's going to be!  "I'm going to clean my WHOLE house today," I think.  "I'm going to take Aidan for a walk today", I think.  "I'm, going to get all my mommy/wifey errands done today," I think.  (I find these thoughts hilarious and slightly insane at the END of the day when my ass hits my couch and I've gotten maybe 1/4 of these things done!!)   Anyway, back to the love:  I love when an hour goes by and I realize I haven't eaten 1 bad thing ALL DAY!  This usually occurs to me around 7:30am. But still!!  It totes counts!!  Coffee is my breakfast of choice but deep down I know that I need to start getting some kind of actual healthy food in my body to get my metabolism going.  So, I usually have 2 cups of coffee and count WW points for them b/c I have to have real sugar in my coffee!!  Have. To.  But that's what I love about WW!!  I can have my sugar, count the points and still totally be on track!  I AM going to try to cut it back down to 1 cup though.  That will cut my sugar and FFree half & half intake ...well, in half! :P 
So here's the deal, in honor of this post, today I'm going to do at least one of the things that I always say I'm going to do at that wonderful 7:3AM hour, but never do!  Clean the whole house?? Nahhhh.  I'm going to take Aidan for a walk!  I'll even take a couple pics to prove it! :) 
Enjoy your morning peeps!  Remember its a fresh start we get every 24 hours!!!

PS.  My belly's growling RIGHT NOW!

Hump Day Motivation…

So, I’m thinking today would be a great day to have a little visual motivation/inspiration!  I’ve got 100 lbs to lose here people!  I need a LOT of inspiration!!

Uh yeah…..I’d like to look like this please….preferably by Friday.  Mmmmk?  Thanks!

Love bikini pics of MM!!!  She’s got such a real woman’s body!  

Ok, so say what you will about Kim K. but I love the way she embraces her curves and is NOT afraid to show them!  MM would be proud!!  As much as I would love to have the perfect Jessica Alba body, I would be just as happy in a curvy body like KimK (and I’m preeettyy sure my hubby would rather the curvy version of me!). :)  

Alright so thats your daily dose of “Who wants to be a bikiniaire?!?”   Now I must remove my large ass from this chair and go MAKE IT HAPPEN…
 Day 2 is in full effect!

Gross.

That’s how I feel right now.  No energy.  No patience.  Just….gross.  I’m starting this blog to help me have an outlet on my weight loss journey. I am SOO ready to feel like a ‘normal’ person again!  Wait, wait, wait.  Maybe I should give you a little background:
August 1996: I met my best friend and husband.  I was 16, he was 17!  High school sweethearts, if you will, well from 2 different high schools, but anyway….
July 2000: We get married! :)  I got a little chubby at college so I lost a little weight before the wedding….like 50lbs…no big deal.  Just a little diet of nothing but grilled chicken and raisin bran for a few months! :)  But hey!  I looked like this on our honeymoon in Bora Bora:

 
I was 20 and weighed about 130lbs here.  I can NOT tell you the feeling I have when I look at these pictures.  I stare at them and try to remember what if feels like to be this beautiful tan girl with a tan stomach.  No matter how long I look at them…that's just not me anymore.  I feel like I would literally let someone take off my right arm to make my body look like this again.  I can’t believe that a person can go from being so normal looking to being so very over weight…obese actually. Awesome.  Moving right along…
January 2001:  We get pregnant…correction- I get pregnant.  I loved it.  I felt like I was MADE for it!  I was so happy and so hungry!  LOL  I had a very normal uneventful pregnancy and at 9 months I looked like this:

Now just to be clear, that is only about 15 months after the honeymoon!  What a difference, huh?  I weighed around 200lbs here.  And that was that.  I never saw my old body again.  EVER.  I got pregnant again:
2005:

And again:
2009:

Never losing more then 30 lbs here or there afterwards, and all the while saying I needed to lose the ‘baby weight,’ but steadily gaining 5lbs here and 10lbs there.  Which brings us to :
September 2011:

And there you have it.  My rock bottom. Or top if you’re talking the high number on the scale that shall remain unnamed…until maybe one night I’ll be working on my blog with a little too much wine and get the nerve to post it…..
Gross.